MB's Place

i havent posted in a wicked long time. im pretty content with my life right now. in fact, im sort of in love with it. i just feel more at ease and relaxed and less stressed out. i dont feel like i'm obsessing over things as much, which is an amazing feeling.

school is going ok, i really, really hate economics, but other than that its ok.

work is eh. the company is for sale, so who knows what that will mean.

social life, amazing as always.

that is all for now.

so are there any men left out there that don't want to just screw you and actually date you? no? didn't think so.

i am like freaking out about turning 24. i really dont know why this is bothering me so much. but i dont want to be 24 dammit.

so my summer classes started yesterday. i had my first math class and i'm pretty sure i'm the oldest person in this class. everyone in this class like just graduated high school. I am so lost, I don't understand any of this shit. I feel like I should drop this class and take a lower math first. so in other news, i will be 24 in 8 days. lame. i do not want to be 24. i am single and i go to community college and thats it. i have accomplished so much in my 24 years lol. so i really dont have much else going on. and thats that.

i was just thinking. i really do not want to be 24.

so i've been reviewing me school shit to see what i have left. i've decided to take 2 summer classes in hopes that i can be done after the spring 2011 semester. not that this is really impressive as i'll be 24 with an associates degree, but still. i'm taking stress mgmt (online as my stupid gym elective) and math 165, which will be mon and wed from 6-9:30pm. so i'm like freaking out because i havent taken a math class since i was a junior in highschool, which was like 7 1/2 freaking years ago. so i'm really nervous about that and the fact that i'm taking 2 classes in only 4 weeks, even though i'm not expecting stress mgmt to be that hard. in the fall i'm taking econ 111 and bus 204 then i should have to take econ 112 in the spring and a science and i will be done. so now i'm struggling with what to do after i'm done??? so i go to a 4 year school? if i do, how the hell do i pay for it. what 4 year school would i even go to? do they even offer night classes? so in closing, i have absolutely no idea what i'm doing.

i dont feel right and something needs to change. i just want to feel normal :(

so lately i've been feeling very confused and lost and i dont know what i want. i kind of just want someone to make all of my decisions so i dont have to haha. i just wish i knew what it was that i wanted :(

so lately i've been thinking of throwing in the towel for school. i think its about time i give up on this "dream." No company gives a shit about a 2 year degree first off, and especially not if it takes you 5 years to get one. i dont ever plan on getting my 4 year b/c i dont have the money, the time, and i wouldnt even know where to go. plus i hate corporations. they are all shitty and cut throat and you can get canned at anytime. i guess its like that anywhere, but i feel like that more so with corporations. i just keep looking back and regretting the decision i made not to go to school and i have to live with that i guess. everything else seems so blaise lately. i feel like i need some excitement...

soooo i've decided that i seriously need to go to the gym. i might as well, after all, i do pay for it every month. this is the heaviest i've ever been and i can't stand looking at myself anymore. i probably will end up giving up on this in 2 weeks like usual but at least the thought is there now lol. so if anyone wants to join planet fitness - let me know!